Yep. It has been a major long time. I am so socially inept. It doesn’t matter if it’s in the blogosphere or in real life. I suffer from a feeling of “do they really like me?” and “Would they just rather avoid me?” Boy. What a feeling. So. . . . where am I going with this? I guess it doesn’t really matter anyway. The real issue is: What is it that God thinks?
Sometimes, I wonder if I’m totally shallow in my faith. Sometimes I think I am lukewarm, and God wants to spew me out. When I think of that, I realize I haven’t been spending the time with him I should, and then I try to get it right again.
This ought to be a daily thing, and yet sometimes my social ineptness extends to God as well. I suppose it really ought to be called what it is: selfishness and self-absorption. All about me. That is something I need desperately to escape from. Me. Get over it. Move on. Be about something else but me. How about being about Christ? That would suit the bill much better.
And then, if I am to be all about Christ, and yet he made me who I am, how do I go about that?
Hmmm. . . need to think about that one, I guess.
Verse of the day:
“Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ.” Phillipians 3:12
Deus Audiam 