I have trouble maintaining focus on any one project for any length of time. Consequently, many things remain undone. Right now, I am reading a book on Leonardo da Vinci, one on Art Journaling, and several cookbooks to incorporate new foods into our diet. I also am trying to begin some art projects, make a menu plan, plan our next year for homeschool, sort through my thousands of digital photos, maintain a sense of order in the home with my oldest one (my great helper and the equalizer) being mostly gone for the next two weeks (and much of the summer spent in serving–not a bad problem to have, although time-consuming), finish inputting last school year into my HomeSchool Tracker and grading papers, keep up on diaper washing and diaper duty, avoid putting the baby down for too long at a time, coordinate the myriad therapies he now has, avoid neighborhood catastrophies. . .
I’m in the trenches.
I’m easily overwhelmed.
It’s not that I’m stressed so much, just that I don’t feel like I accomplish much each day.
I’m in need of focus, and yet, I don’t have time to do so. Today was hectic, and when my darling husband brought home a dinner we all thoroughly enjoy, as we bowed our heads to pray, I said to him, “You’re too close. I’m feeling over-stimulated right now.” He said, “I know.”
How blessed am I to have a kind husband who senses my tension. How small am I to be so insensitive.
He left me to be by myself for the evening.
Off to pray and to spend some much-needed time of reflection.
update: I see how I can forget all too easily this time of rest God has gifted me with, and much time of reflection allowed me to see that the slowing down process is so essential for me right now.